Revitalization

I just wish to have this place and space to be in contribution even though I may not enroll anyone to be there. May I? I don't know. I'll ask and get the answer. Soon, if I have the chance to ask.
For years it has been my wonderful, enjoyable, experiential and meaningful moments besides my great times with the needy. Most of the times, I've paid it with risking my life. But it worth. What I went through may insufficient to some people because what most important is the enrollment. Not just be part of it.
Sometimes, it hurt me deeply when no one want to understand how important it is to me from the different angle. I just can't make people understand that I do not want anything else. Just an opportunity to be in contribution. Maybe they can't see the significance because maybe they think of something bigger on how to support me. Maybe something this simple never comes across their mind. Though it is simple, for sure, I never want to take anyone or anything for granted since I know this is part of something big and important for them to achieve their dreams. I respect them, their choices and I always pray for their success.
But I know it doesn't belong to me. If I want it, I need to create it. I did it, anyway. In my own way. I'm just asking for an open door to be in contribution, when I still can make it.
By right, I know I should have to pay for the chances given with 'enrollment'. I never deny it and I'm willing to work for it. But I just want to reveal the meaning of "revitalization" from my angle. It is about how I can put a new strength or power into me. It is about what works for me. It is about what can heals me. Mind to lend a hand, anyone?