If Words Can Say It All...

On The Graduation Day...

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”



“The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.” ~Mitch Albom~

You Are Not Alone

Few hours ago my buddy text me and she said something that made me feel I'm alone in this world because I chose not to continue the training (regardless what had happened). But the feeling faded away in a moment. I may not experience what she experienced but until now I still can remember the experience I experienced 2 years ago. It may not as great and superb as I may experience in the real training but it mean a lot to me. I know how much it mean to me and how much it change my perspectives and angles of life. My 'trainer' said Module 2 a.k.a LEC a.k.a Advanced Coursed is to be experienced only once. And maybe this is one of the reason why I'm 'prohibit' to experience it again although with the different trainer and the different people :-) I don't know. It just maybe. Maybe one day I'm able to make it if I want. Well, the value cannot be created if everything just happen in the training room. What more important to me is to apply what I've learned in the training into my life. Part of it, committed, responsible, authentic, contribute. Do what works for me and do something different. Time flies and I can't just wait things to happen. I'm the one who makes it happen. Go and work for it! I know I'm not alone in getting what I want and I'm not alone in achieving my dreams because there is someone out there who share the same vision and share the same dreams. There is someone out there who is willing to love, to care and to support me. I believe that I'm not alone. Yeah...I'm not alone. And I wish everyone in this world feel the same.

I Just Wanna Live While I'm Alive...

because it's MY LIFE! I may stop the journey of the program right here but the journey of my life will continue till my last breath. I've think about it and I know there's a reason why all this happened. Yeah...I feel upset for not able to continue the journey in MA130. I take the training as a 'pit stop' to look at and into myself before I keep moving. I got the best support to continue the training but what more important is me, MYSELF. Do I really want it and why I want it? Acceptance? Recognition? It works for other people and it works for me? To be in the team? The answer is in me. I know what's going on inside me and I'm responsible for taking care of my well being. I know this is not the only 'pit stop' and I can choose another 'pit stop' as long as I'm aware of the need of it. Stop. Choose. Vote. Move. I'm in control of my life and I'm responsible for my own life. I believe that I'm here to live life to the fullest and to be in contribution in whatever way I can. I thank you for all the cares and supports. I love you...

Happy Father's Day

Love you very much...

Don't Let Go (Spirit)

One of the Song...

One of the song that caught my ears during MB129...

Honesty (O.A Billy Joel)

If you search for tenderness
It isn't hard to find
You can have the love you need to live
But if you look for truthfulness
You might just as well be blind
It always seems to be so hard to give

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can always find someone
To say they sympathize
If I wear my heart out on my sleeve
But I don't want some pretty face
To tell me pretty lies
All I want is someone to believe

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

I can find a lover
I can find a friend
I can have security
Until the bitter end
Anyone can comfort me
With promises again
I know, I know

When I'm deep inside of me
Don't be too concerned
I won't ask for nothing while I'm gone
But when I want sincerity
Tell me where else can I turn
Because you're the only one that I depend on

Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you

Bad Smell Comes From...

Huh!...Public Toilet Pun Lagi Bersih...

I'll Move On...I'll Go On...

Lately I've been busy juggling between teaching, marking, writing, editing and proofreading. Also 'nursing' and sharing. What a challenge! Praise to God coz I managed to handle them well and I still have time for myself and other people though. Yeah... Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.
Meanwhile, I'm wondering why should they keep something from me with the reason not to trouble me. But in the end they blame me for not understand them. In another word they are asking who am I to them. That is why sometimes I feel unwanted. Sometimes a small matter could hurt me damn much. A silence could make me cry all night. Most of the time I try not to say anything and just go with the flow. Only God knows what is in my heart. Nothing can stop me from living, anyway. I'll move on...I'll go on till my last breath.

No Boundaries

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way
What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

That's What Friends Are For

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me,
And now there's so much more I see
And so, by the way, I thank you
And then, for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and love
With the words that's coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Oh, keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Oh, keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, oh for sure
Cause I tell you
That's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

For sure,
I won't leave for sure
That's what friends are for

Ikhlas & Redha

Ya, Allah… ikhlaskanlah hatiku untuk redha dan menghalalkan setiap apa yang diambil dan hilang tanpa izin dan kerelaanku. Sesungguhnya, setiap apa yang ada padaku adalah pemberian-Mu, anugerah-Mu dan milik-Mu.

Mengertilah

Aku sudah jarang sekali menyebut dan bercerita tentang sesuatu yang menyakitkan, namun aku masih menahan hiba dalam diam, menangis keseorangan.
Luahan ini bukan mencari kesilapan, bukan juga meminta belaian.
Cuma kadang kala aku merasa dipinggirkan. Ibarat hidup aku bagai tak punya erti melainkan tatkala aku diperlukan.
Tuhan…betapa aku rasa kehilangan.
Betapa aku menyedari mahalnya harga secebis ingatan, mahalnya harga satu pertanyaan.
Lalu, aku mencari ketenangan berteleku di perkuburan yang sekian lama aku tinggalkan.
Aku bukan sekadar ada hidup yang aku teruskan untuk mencari dan mencapai apa yang aku mahukan. Aku juga punya hati dan perasaan.
Aku bukan sekadar ada telinga dan bahu untuk dipinjamkan. Aku juga mahu disayangi dan diberi perhatian.
Meskipun aku tabah menghadapi ujian dan cabaran, namun aku juga perlu kekuatan dan sokongan untuk mengharungi kehidupan.
Aku bukan sekadar memohon dari-Mu, Tuhan
Tapi aku juga mohon pengertian...